«I want to thank everyone who finds the courage to write, visit, and support people convicted under political articles.
I used to have 1% doubt, but now I am sure that the Mariupol theater was bombed by Russia. You always want to whitewash your homeland, but that percentage has died.
<...> I am not proud of my Motherland. I am one of those who, if my mother is an alcoholic, I will not pour her more to be praised by her. I will try to cure her.
The young generation of guys is now perishing in this Slavic meat grinder. Do you know how many guys left the detention center? I know of several dozen, and only two are alive. These are very young guys.
<...> I am often in solitary confinement, there are both pros and cons. At least I don't see the streams of lies from the TV when I don't see it. I just want to say: «Stop the earth, I want to get off». It turns out we have a principle of humanity and equality of prisoners prescribed. I was sentenced to 6 years for a post. And around the same days, a district head in Barnaul was tried for a bribe — a fine of 400,000.
We have so many untouchable officials. Stole, well, stole, beat and beat — it's not particularly serious, not scary for them.
<...> I have never seen as much violence as I have seen in the penitentiary system. The most «brutal» happens in psychiatric hospitals.
The first and third time I had an examination, but the second — they started taking away my shoelaces (what nonsense, if I want, I can hang myself with tights), I sat down and cried, they called psychiatrists, they didn't even talk to me. I was squatting and crying, big guys burst in, throw me on the table chest down, I bite my tongue until it bleeds, they twist my arms and tie them so tightly that I have a scar left, I stumble, they hit me in the stomach, kick me, throw me against the walls. These are the psychiatric ambulance orderlies. They shove me into the ambulance, I accidentally step on the stretcher and hear such foul language, they throw me onto the bench and sit on top. And I'm claustrophobic. For a while, I just lose consciousness. This was in the Biysk psychiatric clinic. They even beat grandmothers there.
I was subjected to violence repeatedly. The first time in the «psychiatric» in Barnaul. There they even took away my pad — what if you eat them. And I say, well, if I eat pads, what will stop me from eating the sheet. For this, they started injecting me with haloperidol. But under it, I washed and scrubbed everything — you could perform operations there. At that time, it shocked me, but then I realized that it could be much worse.
<...> It is very important to humanize our penal system. We cannot allow ordinary people to mock other ordinary people. Evil will multiply until we stop sowing it.
We don't have correctional, we have concentration camps. And the mortality rate is much higher than in the country. The peak of bullying is winter-spring. Because of the lawlessness, I cut my veins. Before solitary confinement, they lead me to the shower, there is no hot water, it is icy. The employee said, let it wait until it heats up. Wait 4 hours, there are no windows in the shower. I started to panic, I start suffocating, I spread a bag on the floor and start washing. Then I lose consciousness and hear — a crowd of people comes in and starts yelling at me to get dressed. I ask for 10 minutes, I have panic attacks. In response — you've been sitting here for two hours already. I hear the order to use force, there are men, I'm in this towel. One leaned on the arm where I have a fresh seam, the thread flew out. Even the instant action injection didn't help right away. And the cherry on top — for these abuses against me, I received another 15 days in solitary confinement.
I was not allowed to wash after the stages. Although I am obliged to maintain hygiene. My first solitary confinement was just for washing, not immediately going to bed. Prosecutor Ostanchik said directly: «Well, consider me a lawyer for the detention center». Although he was confirmed that I was not even given an explanation of why I was in solitary confinement.
I appeal to everyone — the fact that you are apolitical guarantees you nothing. In fact, there are far fewer politically active citizens in prison. At least they are helped.
I'm sorry, this was an opportunity to speak out. I will be silent for a long three years».